All hail me--Buddha KiKi.
For I am (get this):
enlightened.
Ok, stop laughing. Really. Cuz it's TRUE.
And I can't even really explain it.
I, Krissy, am enlightened.
I just woke up yesterday and I felt really really good. Like the beginning stages of a crush where you feel all floaty and light-headed and giddy. Except that I'm SO not crushing at the moment.
It was just a pure moment of clarity. It's amazing.
I don't really know what brought it on either. I think it was just sleep. I've always said that sleep is good--see? Now I know it's true.
And the enlightened-happy-happy feeling was even stronger after I took a nap mid-afternoon.
It's so nice to have clarity. It sucks cuz I can't even begin to describe it.
It's a very zen feeling. VERY zen. I'm just like "all is well." I think I just realized how completely amazing all of my friends are and how great my life really is. I have nothing to really bitch about--I love my friends and family, I have a good job, I'm in college having the time of my life. I have no license to bitch.
And I don't WANT to bitch either.
I'm just quite.....blissful is the best word.
Yeah.
I was feeling so zen that I decided to call Mr. Date--since I hadn't heard from him in a week. Which is pretty much the kiss of death, I know. But I wanted closure. And I wanted to do things MY way. So I called him under the premise that I wanted to see how he was doing cuz I knew he was stressed--which is true.
So I call, hoping that maybe I'll get the machine, but he answered and we had awkward conversation for about a minute before "it" came. "It" being the line: "I'm not ready for a girlfriend at this point in my life." Which I totally expected from him since he hadn't called.
I just smiled my zen smile, said that I understood and that I cared about him and I wanted us to be friends.
I am so zen.
Damn I'm good.
The really funny thing is that I'm not even torn up about it or anything. I was after the date last Thursday but then I went to the retreat and had tons of fun. And then I got clarity yesterday before calling. So it's all good.
All is blissful in KiKi*Land.
Yeah.
Now I'm gonna go and pretend that I'm being semi-useful at the front desk.
Ciao dahling!
~*Krissy*~
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